insanity.

ughugh im so peeved.at everything. dammit.wad's wrong with mommy man. and papa.how can they possibly be so biased and naggy and unreasonable and hypocritical and argh jus abt everything mean's running thru' my head now=x
dammit. i know im gonna look back on this entry and totally regret it. but who gives now. bleh.im starting to think it's one of mommy's leisure sports to pick on me and rant the hell out of me.she picks on EVERYTHING. gosh im so filled with annoyance i cant think straight. maybe i shd be rude and assertive so she'll be afraid of me like she is of leslie and then maybe she'll jus stop directing all her negativity& unhappiness at me.

everything seems to be bugging the friggin' ass hell out of me and im gonna be so sorry for all my hostility later. ok i'd better stop.i am so severely sleep-deprived=/

tired.

I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins

let me be empty and weightless
and maybeI'll find some peace tonight

wooosh.

i feel obliged to type abt my chinese new yr but nah no mood now; think i'll skip that.it was fun on the whole,though;D (even though i lost SIXTY bucks to gege&bryan!=x pfft)

gosh it's 630am and ive not properly slept yet!jus a coupla hrs here and there. damn that essay damn that resume damn that application letter.ugh. but srsly thanks to sam for doing that application letter:D
gawds i need to stop eating.ive been eating junk since after dinner! =/

OH YES newsflash! i finally got my braces out=D feels really weird initially.but im absolutely lovin' it now. i loveeee running my tongue over my teeth!feels damn smooth;) (cue: sam sniffs hair!haha) cant stand my teeth though;they're way too tiny ugh.

the trunk felt rough and coarse to the touch. she ran her fingertips lightly across its leathery exterior. then she settled down on the thick, sprawling root of the tree and gazed into the distance.
there were three faces stuck in mind, and they remained there, unmoving. she sighed, low and deep, and called gently to the nightingale. she needed the melody to ring true in her heart.

it's difficult to believe that such a person actually exists. what a disgrace to us females. im no bra-burning feminist but i cant do anything to soothe that severe irritation within me, maybe except to say this: bitch.

=D

Arm in arm over meadow and farm,
walking my baby back home.

carpe diem.

omg.i jus finished dead poets' society; it's so brilliant.srsly cried like MAD i love it so much!!! it's sucha thought-provoking, rebellion-inducing show hah. makes me wanna throw all my inhibitions to the wind, quit school and audition for a play somewhere(haha though that's highly unimaginable given my stage fright eeks) thank goodness my parents arent like neil's=/

ooo yay it's valentine's day=D and i'll be meeting two of my lovelies!gla& gege wheeee. and then sharon aft her movie!haha wad an exciting day!
omg i'll really LOVE this wk and nxt if not for the bloody assignments man=( one essay due nxt friday and hw111!omg that one's a major headache cos' im SO unclear abt all the requirements and nittygritty of things ugh.

If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended:
That you have but slumb'red here,
While these visions did appear.

bushed.

omg im tiredtiredtired.help. -YAWN- i only had FOUR miserable hrs of slp last night!!!but stepup was worth it=D
and then today?rushed down to meet joanie aft class (YAY i finally met her; miss her SO MUCH) and then ticketing frm evening to night. gosh.so tired now i can barely keep my eyes open. and i still gotta finish up that application for the exchange programme!i need to shower.

ooo i saw this damn pretty white frock at heeren today going for only 39bucks!dunno if it's worth it but thnks to joanie imma get it tmr=D

OOO did i mention i finally got a tuition job???i start tmr! yay really thankful:D but cant help feeling apprehensive abt the whole thing.i hope i'll cope ok.
omg cant wait for tmr; gonna yongtaufu aft tuition then yayyyyy dinner with gege then ticketing again. but nvm thank goodness sharon'll be with me the whole while so it'll be fun!

gawds time to hit the shower im srsly beat.

everybody feels this way some time.

feeling really happy now!jus came back frm long john's at jp with sam:D gosh it's damn fun hanging out with him man; he's the lamest ass ever.eh i want details sooooon ok;> gosh im quite enjoying this sem so far (MINUS all the bloody essays)- not really wanting it to end.

sometimes i wonder if we'll all still keep in touch.as in, aft graduation, aft this sem, aft saying byebye to academia, i wonder if we'll all still bother to keep in touch and stay close. it's quite a sad thought, to be honest.but ahwells.

and yayyy tmr's my offday whee.
gosh my back's DAMN tired i dunno why.jus a whole mesh of bruised/tired/aching muscles. i wanna do a 360 on my torso and head!omgosh that jus sounded damn freaky man.

booo sharon's feeling feverish so we might not be catching tmr's sunrise at adm anymore=( but nvm!get well soon dear:D omg but anyways,lying on ur back on prickly grass atop the slopes at adm under the nightsky's UBER beautiful. i love that feeling so much-it's indescribable :)

i dream - and that's when i fall.

stop. and smell the roses

woooooots today's been sucha wonderful day=D veryy unexpectedly,mommy& i ended up shopping for 9 straight hours!!!OMG. but retail therapy's never been this gooood.i cant believe we stayed for sucha loooong time in raffles city!!andand i ate like i never did man. omg.frm dinner to dessert to MORE dessert.oooo the waffle and icecream at newyork newyork's so gd=D yay happy happy day=D

and yesterday was sooo lovely too; cos i finally headed to the zoo with gla!omgosh weather was lovely,icecream was lovely and company was loveliest:) had sucha WONDERFUL time lah.ooo ben&jerry's cookies and cream rocks SO MUCH.hur but i think haagen daz' midnight cookies' still my favoritest. hah.
yay then met gege& bryan in town for... (u guessed it) turkish again!!!=D haha. OMG.btw we encountered this big time coward cum pervert on the train.i wanna puke jus thinking of the incident-retches- so thankful bryan was there=/ gege, PLS TAKE CARE. i hope he falls down while walking and smashes his face into a pile of shit.

dang my neck's still whacking the life outta me.groans. think i'll go rest soooon.

I roll the window down,
feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town.
Feel broken down,

I feel broken down.