magic-ed =D

phew.had sucha lovelyyyy time with gege& bryan today! thankew for the treat,brine!teehee=D omg the la mian at crystal jade's srsly damn nice!i finished the whole bowl. oink in ur face;) and omggg the christmas lights in orchard are prettypretty!!hanging out in starbucks was even better- omgg the beautiful music and jus generally relaxed,laidback (NO MORE EXAMS WOOT!) aura srsly soothes the soul=D jus a lil' bit of snow and that overseas feel is effected;omg damn awesome feeling.

and i FINALLY MET GEGE wheee=DD miss u like hell, babe! (OMG i suddenly rmbered the camera jam thingie! HAHAHAHA;D)

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG GUESS WHO ELSE I MET!jonathan leong! wheeee=Domgg!! i was a lil' stunned! i think he was with a friend;omg he's so tall and srsly he has presence!ahhhhhh ok im going nuts. haha but nah he's jus a wistful dream.no matter anyways!
and pam: HAHAHA OMG imagine if i really do that to him!!! he'll FREAK can-.- HEE damnnn funny lah!!!=D

yay tmr meeting pongieeeeee=D=D omgg life is looking up for me;D must be cos' exams're over! omg wad a hyper entry!haha shiat do i sound like im on prozac again=/

omg "these foolish things"'s playing on class95 i loveeee this song sooo much.i can fall in love with rod stewart's voice jus like that -snap- :)

"Because I'd still say yes to you again,
My Darlin' for you, I do it all again.
Yes, I'd still say yes to you again,

Darlin' for you, I do it over and over again."

~hmmm.

free me of perplexity.

-GRINS and does a lil' victory dance- it's officially OVVVERRRRR=D whee! pah i dun care if i screwed it up.no no wad matters is that it's over!=D=D

ahhh i feel so full& fat now.digestive biscuits are SO addictive man. i need my exercise pronto!ohyah HAPPY BDAY to papa!!i love u! (sorry no present or surprise,though:( abit difficult to plan frm hall also!but ugh dumb excuses=/) oh yes thankew to yanyan for ur cd- it's lovely& i love it!! =D

sighs.smth's bugging me... horrendously=(( i dunno wad triggered it man.it jus happened. im like pissed off abt it and also damn sad at the same time.ARGH okies wadever. i really hope things will straighten out man.sucks

awww btw!the wonders of youtube!! omggg it's so addictive!instead of hitting my bks (oops),i spent hrs on youtube last night downloading and watching anastasia and beauty& the beast!ahhh beauty& the beast remains my ALL TIME favourite disney movie! it's beautiful.and anastasia rocks sooo much! aye,sharon?hee;D EVERY single song in this movie's awesome really. but dangdang!i cant seem to open youtube now dunno why. bleh!

yawn im feeling slpy.but cannot! i need to pack my stuff.alrightys, gonna cut here

jerk it out.

"An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passion's a prison, you can't break free
You're a loaded gun
There's nowhere to run

No one can save me
The damage is done."

woohoo bonjovi rock on!as always=D

yeehaar officially one more day to liberation! im sooo not prepared for tmr but ah heck,it's the last paper already.whee ive alr got my wk's (frm thurs onwards)schedule of FUN all planned out:D dang but for now,it's back to dreadful ol' godot& persona -makes a face-

how can someone be so unbelievably thick-skinned? tsktsk. i simply can't imagine.it's... plain revolting. to you if you're reading this: go reflect. the world doesn't revolve around puny,lil' insignificant you. if you can't handle this truth, stay in your crib and suck on that pacifier.

~ liar liar pants on fire. UGH

ooh baby i love ur way=D

wheeee im in such high sprits tonight- no idea why also!;D oohyes we went fishing this morning!omggg i absolutely loveeeeee going at topnotch speed in a boat!especially in the front seat!! it's uberrr exhilarating yeahbaybehh!and joanie, we were willing windbreakers, weren't we!haha i miss u alr =D oh btw!i caught THREE fish wheeeee;D haha though it's really not alot but still!yay omg it's really satisfying to feel the tug at ur line and then discover u actually caught smth!but i quite pity the poor fish too =(

wellwell then gennat and gang came over; HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENNY!!=D ure 17!enjoy ur special day ok! iloveyou!!=D (and let's PLEASE MEET UP aft my final,dreadful paper ok! i NEED updates man;>) halfway thru their stay,i fell aslp!haha oopsie so rude right! but i was damnnn tired. and burnt- omg my face and back are like redredred!! i bet it'll hurt like a bitch tmr heh.

ahhh class95 plays the best music=D

"He's laughing with another girl
And playing with another heart.
Placing high stakes, making hearts ache.
He's loved in seven languages.
Diamond nights and ruby lights, high in the sky.

Heaven help him, when he falls."

contented.

whoosh these few days have been a whirl for me,somewhat literally too. cos' ive barely recovered and still going ard here and there!omgosh one LAST paper left and then im officially FREEEEE!!=D but ah heck,ever since friday ive alr considered myself free!hee

yday was dinner with yujin!subway first and then (omg)earthquake at swenson's!!gosh it was almost equivalent to eating FOUR icecreams each!!!that's four OINKS for u;D was wonderful catching up with him; we havent met since likeeeeeeee omg dunno since when!heh and it was even more fun bitching isnt it, auntieyujin! ;D

yup and today... ooh les& joanie accompanied me to siglap to pass gdt my clutch!hope it comes in handy deary! (can use as a weapon for self-defence also!HEE=D)then i treated les &joanie to lunch at cafe cartel!omg im so nice can;) haha then frm there we took a bus down to orchard to go a-scouting for gen's pressie and jus walk ard cos joanie felt the urge to shop!!(though she didnt buy anything in the end huh!) yeah and here's a big thankew to les for accompanying me throughout despite that rotten flu!=D

alrightys gonna cut here; i need to recharge for tmr's fishing trip!=D=D and yayy gen& nat are coming over in the evening wheeee

And i love the thought of coming home to you.

yay another one down!whee;D i dun care if it was screwed up; im jus damn glad it's OVER!!omg i was sniffling throughout all two& a half hrs it was awful!think id better steal more tissue frm pongie for tmr's paper=/

eeksyyyeeks im having the worst outbreak EVER-pouts- okay i promise to go book facials soooooon.. aft exams!yes yanneh, we'll go together OK;) yay im feeling soooo much better now!so many doses of vit c;thankew to sam for ur HUGE apple! hee

mm sarah mclachlan's 'angel' is so beautiful,really. i identify with it, and that makes it even better.

aw dangdanggggg i need to start proper on revision for my paper tmr!!shrieks. urghssssssss ok imma comfort myself with positive thoughts: TMR!!! whee=D

"Here I am
Will you send me an angel
Here I am
In the land of the morning star."

oh, someone pass me an orange!

flu,sorethroat and an imminent bout of fever:''''((( all smack in the midst of exam whirlwind.urghs how worse can timing get? -snifflessniffles- excuse me while i go blow my nose off my face.
dang it i see my two lit papers slowly creeping towards me, claws bared, all ready to drag me into thursdayfriday doom.BLEH.

OHYES HAPPY BDAY EUGENE!=D it's ur 21st!!omg that's damn old!!hee here's wishing u the best of luck for all ur exams yeah;) whee

on an utterly random note,i actually found another goongoon who saw the OTHER( unbelievably GORY ) version of phantom of the opera!haha JUST LIKE ME. it's too uncanny to be true;D

ahh hownowbrowncow i think i shd get back to lit.-gags-

it's amusing, incredulous and also amazing at the same time, the hand life deals us. makes me wanna snort. whatever the case, i'm thankful for the outcome =D

heh heh

omg i cant believe sucha person actually exists. it's... disgusting?-makes a face-

wellwell anyhooo,i'd french today. one word to sum it all up: AWFUL=( was really quite bad; so difficult man.BOO. and im feeling sickkkk now double booooo=( dunno why my chest feels so tight maybe i shd hammer it.and i sense the beginnings of a really bad sorethroat=/ pah.i shall take comfort in the fact that the next coupla days are exam-free. but then... thurs& fri marks the end of my academia=/ but WADEVER.i'll worry when the day comes.

oh yayy meeting jinny(HAHA) this fri!wokay smth to look forward to at least=D alrighty better get back on down to boring ol' chaucer.and srsly, who bothers abt lit theories! tsk

it's something of a wonder.no?

omggg i was feeling uber hyped up jus now.kinda died down a lil' alr cos' sleep's overtaking my senses. we were at clubmomo to support derek's gig for this charity event!anyhoo,EXCELLENT JOB, derek!!!omg i was soooo proud standing there with my camera, fixated on my younger brother onstage!u were wonderful=D with a lil of mommy's magic, the a cappella group sang happy bday to him afterwards!omg so lovely of them=) yay i hope this has been a memorable 16th bday for u!!hugs

it's odd; the way it affects me.

she twirled the loose strand around a finger, staring absent-mindedly out the window. she wondered what went on beyond that dull hedge. a world entirely different from her own, perhaps? and she longed to venture.

oh, these beautiful reruns:)

(OMG electrico is soooooo gd=D really, their music makes me wanna go dance on a wooden bridge, electric guitar in hand.pseudo maestro, that is.HAHA)

thankewwww to all my lovelies for yday=D=D ahhh met up with tian AT LAST!been sucha loooong time and it's strange how we still manage to connect so naturally despite the looong absence.well, 13yrs of friendship shd explain this special bond!once a bestie, always a bestie..it's lovely& i love u!=)

then aft that at night we went for joanie's concert at tp.it was brilliant! joanie was an absolute headturner in her sexy lil' (little's an understatement! hee) black dress;) it was the shortest lah!!!anw it was a gd show! after that we zipped down to brewerkz to meet up with sally ee and the girls!thankyou for the present,gennat! i love it.oh i even got a dessert on the hse frm brewerkz!whee=D

omg... then this morning came.i woke up and poof!im back frm cloud nine... back to reality. french exam's on mon and then subsequently,lit. bleh.was online with clarice and she scared me to death with her genuine SHOCK at my inactivity!haha omg. im so screwed=/ and later still going to momo for derek's gig!im having jus a bit too much fun=/ at the wrong time somemore.bleh.

ahhh the sun looooks yummylicious!haha ok wrong description. but it looks damn goooood!but i cant go tanning!cos i NEED TO SIT DOWN TO STUDY argh.

ohhh yes here's wishing my dear derek a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! enjoy ur 16th,dude!and keep that passion in ur veins;D hugs.

to you: stay strong and don't revert to ur ol' self.i know it's futile, me saying this. but ahwells.no harm trying, aye?

i know so much is true=D

im feeling... BLESSED=D=D thankewwwwww soooooo muchieeeemuch for everything!okayyy the day's barely begun and here i am feeling ALL HYPED UP alr.

cos' ive alr received TWO surprises frm two of my lovelies!thankeww to pongie for that wonderful surprise=)) it was all SO lovely& unexpected!!!hee no wonder u were acting so strangely.thnks sooo much deary:) and thnks to benson& tk also for playing along so wonderfully. AND THEN CAME THE NIGHT=) THANKEW GEGE! i appreciate ur effort soooooooooo much.it was TOTALLY unexpected!!! i opened the door and there was gege& bryan with a lit-up cake! OMG i was uber touched for the second time today!!ure such a beautiful blessing to me,gege=))

aww i feel like tearing now.lovelylovely. thnkssss to yujin for ur lovely msg also!=) and sharon for that amazing bodyshop compilation!!love it!haha thnks les for ur BOOK (wth is "the tenant of wildfell hall"!!?omg) and mommy,derek, both gens, xiaoyun,eugene, lance,shinyee, mimi,sharon liao, manda. haha and papa for his msg ONE WK earlier-.- omg who else did i miss out. yayy meeting tian,joanie and the rest tmr!wheeeeee ok i'd better stop this madness. i sound like im on prozac or smth.well maybe i really am! HEE

reminiscences.

was jus reading a friend's old blog entries and it suddenly hit me- omg an entire yr has flown by. it's been a loooooong time and time really does whoosh by you without u knowing.it's quite amazing... and also frightening at the same time. ahh thunder's booming in the skies overhead and im in love with the sound and the chilly weather and the grayness of it all.i love rainy weather.

omgosh those memories linger, always.innocence and naivete. superficialities and mindless irrelevancies all aside. i miss 'em.the normality of things. when nothing was weird or complicated.-shuts eyes- im referring to soooo many things all at once, im starting not to make sense.but ahwells, as long as i understand,that's ample.

i miss. yes, i still do. even if just a lil'.

she pushed her hair into a loose braid, gently clenched the hem of her dress and bounded out into the field, after him. under the twinkling nightsky, they sat, side by side...
they watched their memories fleet past them. her hand in his and his in hers... they pondered, and sighed.

~ When tomorrow comes we'll both regret things we said today.

wth.

ahhhh -lets out a shriek and collapses- ok that was a panic attack.lemme seeeeee -counts on fingers- one, two,three, four,five,six! ahhh SIX more days to the beginning!!omgggg someone help meeeeeeee. ok sam, calm urself.take deeeeep breaths. -breathes in and out- AHHH NOT WORKING=/

paradise lost, here i come.bleh

im like glass?wth? u dunno me.

rainrain won't u stay with me?

oh gawds i woke up at 2pm can u believe it!! ok for me it's uber late already. heh thnks to u bro,for keeping me up till 5-.- hee kidding la- it was super chatting with u.lighten up & try to keep ur explosive tendencies in check ok?;)

ahh it's raining furiously outside.rocks=D i love these rainy days.though i really wonder how imma get out of my house to meet rach ltr... yay cant wait to meet her!!!havent seen her in like a gazillion decades alr haha.

ugh i cant believe exams are in a wk=/ im freaking out!!!but as much as i REALLY WANT to settle down to do some study, i can't!bleh. maybe it's cos' i've no idea where to start? omg this is badbadbad=/ ok i'll go start on that disgusting theory bk ltr -sticks out tongue- really,theories can go kiss my ass.i hate'em =(
yay my mood's somewhat lifted these days. the only thing pulling me down is the exams.ugh horrid. they're putting a dampener on everything.

chant to self: ineedtostudyineedtostudyineedtostudynownownowsomebodyhelpmeplease:'(

those little sprinklings of stardust upon your face. oh, leave them. and won't you twirl me round and round? make my world spin.

Thank You.

=)

i woke up this morning with a smile in my head.i was actually happy. haha and i was jus telling pongie abt it,much to her bewilderment i think;> it's been a long time since i woke up in a positive mood. 2 msges,frm joanie& rach, really made my day:) (havent seen u two in ages.ure soooo missed) ive been blessed with such a lovely group of angels. and i feel the need to say thank you to my special bunch of lovelies.hugs

outside this bunch, the rest of u also make life sooo much more worth living.i cant name names here cos' there're too many and i don't wanna run the risk of missing anyone out. but u all should know who u are:) every lil' thing counts and each time i smile/laugh cos' of u,i wanna say thank you. haha omg this is getting a tad cheesy but ah heck.i mean it. and to papa, mommy,les &derek: i love you all so much:D and my amazing cousins gen& nat.

Thank You for being there no matter what:) BIG HUG.

scram.

And you know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
You know it's just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase

To be real, it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late.

aw damn it all.

woots. randomnity

first things first,a big THANKEW to mommy dear for the gargantuan shopping expedition yday=D haha it was awesome, swooping dresses/tops/accessories/what-nots frm racks and shelves......i was like a deprived lil' mouse in cheeseland (sorry for the cheesy analogy.eh, pun! heh),mommy in tow;D but yeah i'd an amazing time yday:) thankew mommy!love u

i feel like im trapped in time.it's insane. im there and yet not quite there.there where? dun ask me,ive no clue. it's like...this odd feeling of hanging in midair, secured only by barely-there pieces of thread. heh.my mood's been shit since yday evening. sigh. it's jus blahblah everywhere=/

ahh had a really enlightening conversation with yujin last night;) haha bro,u arent some secondhand friend please-.- ure FIRSTCLASS;D

-sighs- gege,i hope things turn out beautifully for u. really ure so special..it kills me to see everything like that.
rawr. omg i jus wanna scream and smash someone's head with a guitar now.moments like these call for songs like orson's no tomorrow. that song always manages to lift my mood a lil'.jus a lil' heh

bought a ticket for a runaway train
like a madman laughing at the rain
a little out of touch, little insane
it's just easier than dealing with the pain.

prettypretty =)

kicking all work woes aside, im in a relatively delirious mood;D gla stayed over last night and we'd a wild time laughing at basically everything.hee it's always so lovely having your soul-girlfriend (in her case!whee) over.we pigged out on ice-cream like starved savages!! omg it's really terrible,the way we go at icecream haha. so then she went home.and ltr im meeting her AGAIN. haha it's crazy the way we never get enough of each other;D iloveu!
yipperdee yay she's bringing me to this eski (not sure if it's spelt this way) bar at holland v.heard the concept there's pretty cool; arctic temps & all!hah but i wonder if we'll change course again midway, as we always do;p

ahh wad a chirpy entry.heh i think cos' my mood's chipper right now. well, as long as i don't think of that disgusting 104essay/craft of writing assignment both due friday and the much dreaded french oral on thurs=/ yikes.& omg exams are beckoning(in less than 2wks to be exact.shrieks) wad a lousylousy time:'( dammit no i'll try to shove these worries out of my head & enjoy myself. heh which i think won't be particularly difficult for me;)

she frolicked and skipped amongst the field of flowers, head tossed back in abandonment. she danced and sang. and she smiled. if only, if only.

even if only for a moment.

one more time, maybe.

aw dang that rewrite of sonnet75's due tmr and ive barely begun on it=/ well.whatever heh.

ahh im glad for that hr nap i took jus now..feeling helluva better. i think i need to sleep more.OH gla's staying over this fri!!!whee;D finally.and then meeting rach for dinner sometime during the wkend also. yayy=Di miss all of 'em.

yujin's been a real dear to talk to online of late... with everyone so weird/busy, im glad for him; or i promise u i'll explode and die in an instant haha.really feels soooo much better aft confiding in him. thnks bro=)

i think the problem with me is that i remember.(no sam, it has nothing to do with my SUPPOSEDLY amnesiac condition haha) i tend to keep harping on the past and it wrecks me all the time. it's awful.i need to forget. i need to learn how to move on and leave the past where it ought to be anyway- behind.sigh.

it don't make no difference,
escaping one last time.
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness,
oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees.

aye?