for no reason at all.

ahhh i feel a headache coming... pah.

ooh i went shopping with joanie today - was sooo determined to use at least ONE of the looong line of vouchers weiqi passed to me;D heh will be really guilty otherwise! (and no,this isn't an excuse to go shopping ok.hee)so anyways, i used the voucher for a pair of sandals frm novo!whee i also got this necklace frm diva.no voucher for that,though. but i really love it!!then we met the gang at tampines and headed for sasi's 21st bday celebration. gosh aunty amuda's chili chicken is seriously out of this world,im telling u. it rocks soooooooo much.i could clean out the entire pot easily.heh wad a piggy pig right.

ok i'll go start on my essays in ten minutes. (yeah right)

oh yess i met up with gla yesterday.we went to the airport, supposedly to STUDY.but ah wells, it's been a loooong time since the last time we talked u know! hee that explains everything,doesn't it? but well,it was wonderful catching up with her..not enough time, though!!i need to meet her AGAIN SOON.hee

then met up with gege aft that.heh gege was like a lil' businesswoman, bustling ard city plaza collecting her stuff to sell online. i was so tired and beat by that time,all i did was follow her about like a zombie, watching her go abt everything.haha sometimes i wonder where she gets so much energy from. (sigh i hope things turn out fine for her,the poor dear. i'll be here no matter wad,love)

ooh then we met up with gen,nat and gang for ICECREAM at island creamery.seriously, the mudpie's to-die-for. omgomg it's soooooo gd. (and fattening too.but who really gives when it comes to oreo&icecream heh)

ah crap.10mins up already. oh bother i dun quite feel like returning to hall tmr.im starting to settle in my room and totally loving life at home again.so much food! haha

OH im meeting joanie for yongtaufu tmr!whee cant wait;D

ok time to log off from here and at least digest that damn qn.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee BOTHER.

i can't believe it's thursday already!!!omg it's scary the way time flies by so quickly. i've still got three essays to do by the end of the week.ARGH. ok to be more specific,2 out of these 3 are due only the week after next. BUT STILL.im so lost:'(

oh i went for neck massage again on wednesday,with sam.now my neck feels like someone attacked it with a sledgehammer. it feels battered. and i still feel the mass/mess of bones.ugh it's awful; i wanna give it a hard 360degrees yank and solve the aching once and for all. i suspect my neckache is spreading to my back cos' im starting to feel strain in that area.bleh.

awww i dreamt of jon last night! gosh it's bordering on an obsession already eh.haha i was actually youtubing his performances late last night. his delivery of stone temple pilots' 'plush' was damnnnnn sexy.omg and his jazz performance was RIVETING. his rendition of 'unforgettable' gave me goosebumps and i found myself staring dreamily at him throughout,wishing it was me he was addressing hah. ok i'm going nutty nuts. must be fear of not completing my essays coupled with the late hour now tripled with my lack of slp.

oh boy. oh jon.

gosh i cant believe tonight's the results show... regardless,though, jon's already my winner;D oh if only he'd belt out 'kissing a fool' or 'unforgettable' to me. i'd go crazy for sure.

arghhhhhh my gatsby homework is still in the works and by the looks of it,i wont get my essay done by today.one paragraph really doesn't spell much of an end, does it?blehbleh. well,there's really nobody else to blame but myself. spending the day youtubing jon's performances isn't gonna magically churn out a complete essay,y'know. but it's still worth all that time wasted i guess;)

i cant wait to meet gla and gege on fri!!!really looking forward to that:D

ugh i think there's some kind of virus going ard.my computers at home are all under attack and poor mom cant get any work done without her com. thank goodness for my dad's laptop heh.

-lapse-

oh gawds results are coming out in mins!!

I HOPE JON WINS.

it ain't over till it's over.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok done screaming. gosh the essays are killing meeeeeee.not that ive even started working on them yet, no way,jus that the mere glance at the questions' making me wanna set the papers ablaze. it's freaking incomprehensible.how am i gonna start if i don't even understand the damn content.ugh pardon me but im damn vexed over this now.

natty and gang came over for dinner jus now!then we were supposed to go to island creamery for dessert but by the time we got there,it was CLOSED. wad a pooper right.but no worries cos' i came back home and satisfied my diabetic sweet tooth with SIX oreos and fresh milk!! omg that must've set me back like ten thousand rounds around the track.

gosh tmr's idol finals alr.i really hope jonathan wins. though i wouldn't be half as angry/annoyed if hady were to win,too.that guy's damn likeable.

EEKS sorry im suddenly reminded of my essays again.i really need to set my notes ABLAZE, POOF, UP IN FLAMES, DISAPPEAR, OUT OF SIGHT, NO WORRIES.ugh. gosh im starting to ramble.who really gives abt lit theoriesssssssss gosh. i hope none of the professors ever get to this pg.

ahh i miss my free and easy days so much. so so so so so so much.those days of mindless bumming ard.those days of having no concrete problem in mind. those days of only having to worry abt things not even worth worrying abt.

aw damn ive driving tmr at freaking 8am.damn crazy right. bleh.

oh bother.

sigh=(

snap out of it.

let's get back to reality.

guilty as a girl can be.

im in a pensive mood now. i dunno; i feel straddled between two states of mind - calm and extreme intensity.it's damn weird. heh but everything's rushrush now.nxt wk's recess alr (so fast!!!omg) and right after that i have FOUR DAMN ESSAYS to turn in=/ bleh that one's killing me,really, cos' im still quite clueless as to how to go abt starting on the essays.

i feel so guilty everytime i take a backward glance at pongie.she's always focusing on work!! gosh but im glad she's like that;it motivates me... well,ok somehow it does haha. argh my laziness really irks me sometimes.it's a bane of my existence heh. really.i know ive probably said this before, but i cant help it cos' it's soooo true - i feel like im forever stuck in quicksand=S

OH im finally going to fix my neck tmr.sam's bringing me and i hope it'll finally WORK!! heard his godpa's not bad.gosh but im really scared it'll hurt:'( -crosses fingers-

gosh i hope joanie gets to stayover on sat!!!i miss her so much... sigh.i really miss the old days sooo much. OK MOVE ON ALREADY,SAM.hahha sorry i need to give myself pep talks sometimes when i start to drift off into the past. can't let myself stay there.but the memories linger, and they always will.

ahhh eugene sent me this damndamndamn nice song. it's "maybe im amazed" by jem. think it's frm the oc.it's sooo nice. dunno why but i felt like tearing when i saw the lyrics.so simple and real.

"Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
who's in the middle of something
that she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
who could ever help me
Baby, won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you."

when everything whizzed past.

ugh im in a blues kinda mood again.dunno wad's wrong; maybe this is really my night syndrome.it's getting regular dammit. ok gonna suppress it cos' whining abt it ain't gonna make it any better anyway.

yup anyway,i caught up with rach today. we went shopping!and i bought a zara top which i absolutely love:D hahah and as usual, gege spent a bomb.seriously pity fred nxt time heh. (u know im kidding la,deary) i'd a lovely time with her; she always makes me laugh so hard;) i hope she's better now yeah.

boo abby's not free to accompany me to yongtaufu tmr and i get a feeling i won't be able to wake up on time anyway hahah.so i guess i'll have to give this wk a miss. nxt wk i'll definitely go!

haha ok im off to play online minesweeper with eugene now.i'd BETTER WIN THIS TIME.

you got me wrapped around your finger.

ahhh im bloated.jus committed the cardinal sin of eating wayyyy past the time my digestive juices cease to function! eeks. -stares at growing tummy-

well. im blind.haha almost. and i mean it,literally!i left my specs back in hall (HOW DUMB RIGHT) and now,after having removed my contacts (which've been irritating me for quite a bit),i'm officially as blind as blind can get. gosh i've to squint and press my face reaaallly close to the monitor just to see stuff; heh ok try not to imagine how stupid i must look now.

oh yes!i went for that shu uemura eye makeup workshop thingy rach and i signed up for. very UNFORTUNATELY,rach couldn't make it:'( so i had to trot down to winsland house with my barely there sense of direction and locate level 6,beauty hall. by some really divine stroke of luck, i actually found myself a partner!we worked in a group of 4 and the other girls were really sweet and down-to-earth so i had quite a nice time. im so bushed now!need to hit the sack in a bit;as soon as my bloatedness fades away haha.

oh we had a farewell dinner for yafen yesterday. i hope she has a wonderful and amazing stay in uk!!=) anyways, i brought them to amirah's grill; boy has that place changed!not in appearance, no,but in terms of staff service. there's a marked difference in the attitudes of the staff and i doubt i'll ever be visiting the place again.even the food tastes somewhat different;in a bad way heh. hah so glad pongie was there with me.i would've hated being there without her,the ambience was damn... erm damn ugh,esp. with the seniors around heh. i actually found myself missing sharon,angela, ash,eugene and everything back at hall.hah, considering my previous woes abt adapting to hall life,it's hard to believe i actually feel so attached to my hall already.

argh ive two essays,for now at least!, to complete over the hols and it's killing me cos' i'm still very lost in one of the particular modules im taking.blehbleh

"Desperado, why don't you come to your senses,
Come down from your fences- open the gates.
It may be rainin, but there's a rainbow above you.
You'd better let somebody love you,
Let somebody love you.

You'd better let somebody love you,
Before it's too late."

darlin',u give love a bad name.

-grins- i had my hall dinner and dance last night at traders hotel!!! gosh it was an insane rush of activities before the function.sharon,ashton, shuhui and i were down at far east doing hair first. i wasn't particularly fond of my hairstyle!looked so oldddd and boooring. anyhoo, we only finished at 7,which was the stipulated time for the dinner to commence!hahah then it was off to flag for a cab and we zoomed down to ash's godma's place (thanks for letting us use her place!) to complete the look with makeup. and i did MY OWN MAKEUP!!!oh gosh luckily i didn't come out looking like some over the top china wayang doll, or so i hope!

ahhh overall the party was fine.at least we had gd company! and oh yes,pongie won hall queen!! sooo proud of u,deary;) wheee i was realllly thrilled for her.was so proud of her when she played the flute and strutted down the stage!must've been sucha proud moment for her parents and benson;D

heh i dunno how to upload pics here so until i do (or until gege decides to lend me her services),there'll be no pics! oh btw gege,thanks for ur gold bangle and earrings!:D heh i didn't use the earrings in the end; got a different pair. and let's have a stayover soon ok!i really enjoyed talking to u the other day and listening to all ur woes(albeit UNNECESSARY. hee)

ugh sch starts again tmr.and i haven't done my french hmwrk!!! boo=(

ooohh i was jus reading joanie's blog.hah i don't think i'm worthy of ur praise but i'm honestly glad.ure one of the most important anchors in my life and u keep me rooted to who i am.i love u:) hugs.

"It's late and I'm feeling so tired,
Having trouble sleeping;
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing."

i need.

yay met up with gege today!we went to the most happening place in the universe - jurong pt.heee;) thanks for coming all the way here,deary. really miss hanging out with her soooo much.

oooohh jonathan totally rocks my non-existent boots right off my feet man.he's soooo.... soooo... sexxayyy.... gosh he made chasing cars soooooo... beautiful.i love it so much now.

i'm halfway through my "this is me" assignment frm this particular module i'm taking.it's actually quite fun to write; if only it wasn't graded eh haha. reflection is always a gd thing, but it somehow wears me down sometimes.i hate how the memories always come back to haunt me.

hahha msn's really damn fun with eugene ard;> gosh i still can't get over that star-shaped table haha.nonsensical ass.

ahhhh the night is sooo long.

"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me

and just forget the world?"

well now.

bleh my head feels heavy. the beginnings of vomit're starting to rise in my throat and i just feel generally nauseated.wad a horrid feeling. :(

i wanna run away from all this and relax... in an enchanted forest,where pretty lil' fairies dwell.where the animals run free. where the air is crisp, and not merely some phony grassy smell.where the water is clear and cool. where plants grow at random and flowers bloom all the time. where butterflies roam.where nightingales sing and cuckoos coo. where music is in the air.where it's always midnight.

"I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete."

wheeeee

yay i passed my final theory!!:D i know it's not that big a deal..but i'm soooooo happy cos' i was totally expecting to fail!whee;D

gosh i feel a lil' unwell.lack of sleep, i guess. i feel worn out,dunno why. think i'd better quit my late night/wee morning habit and get ENOUGH REST.

ahh it feels good to be home.i haven't had a proper home-cooked sit-down meal in weeeeeeks!! and my mom had some leftover breadpudding (her debut!frm yday i think) with lemon sauce and ICECREAM..........yummmmm! gosh it was really a slice of heaven -the sweetest sin.

oh yippeee joanie's staying over again:)) gonna terrorize her tonight. -throws joanie a really sinister look- hee. gosh joan just showed me smth really characteristic of her.two words for u, my seemingly decent cousin: YOU'RE HORNY.