guilty as a girl can be.

im in a pensive mood now. i dunno; i feel straddled between two states of mind - calm and extreme intensity.it's damn weird. heh but everything's rushrush now.nxt wk's recess alr (so fast!!!omg) and right after that i have FOUR DAMN ESSAYS to turn in=/ bleh that one's killing me,really, cos' im still quite clueless as to how to go abt starting on the essays.

i feel so guilty everytime i take a backward glance at pongie.she's always focusing on work!! gosh but im glad she's like that;it motivates me... well,ok somehow it does haha. argh my laziness really irks me sometimes.it's a bane of my existence heh. really.i know ive probably said this before, but i cant help it cos' it's soooo true - i feel like im forever stuck in quicksand=S

OH im finally going to fix my neck tmr.sam's bringing me and i hope it'll finally WORK!! heard his godpa's not bad.gosh but im really scared it'll hurt:'( -crosses fingers-

gosh i hope joanie gets to stayover on sat!!!i miss her so much... sigh.i really miss the old days sooo much. OK MOVE ON ALREADY,SAM.hahha sorry i need to give myself pep talks sometimes when i start to drift off into the past. can't let myself stay there.but the memories linger, and they always will.

ahhh eugene sent me this damndamndamn nice song. it's "maybe im amazed" by jem. think it's frm the oc.it's sooo nice. dunno why but i felt like tearing when i saw the lyrics.so simple and real.

"Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
who's in the middle of something
that she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
who could ever help me
Baby, won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you."